I have every faith in you, or I wouldn't still be in this bed. [He'd meant it as a general you but... it's even more truthful in the specific. It's because of Lorenz and Hilda that he's able to tolerate bedrest at all. Claude shifts on the bed; the discomfort of baring an honest truth is something he's been feeling with more and more regularity. He blames Byleth's influence.
As expected, the bare minimum of pleasantries and Lorenz gets straight to the point. For once, Claude has no idea what Lorenz wants from him. Lorenz himself likely doesn't know. And Claude can't stand not knowing things.
It's tempting to fall back on flippancy, especially after he's already made such an earnest statement-- but he doesn't. This is important, and he wants Lorenz to know it's a matter he takes seriously.] Yeah. You can get a look for yourself, if you want.
I would hardly have anything to compare it to. [The remark is made immediately- callously, like so many other things, though at least this time he has the awareness to seem abashed after giving it voice. Rarely does Lorenz speak without thought for that which he utters. Testament then, perhaps, to his nerves.
It is an admission that implies nothing good- that he himself does not even know exactly what his mark looks like. That he knows only that it is there, gracing the back of his shoulder and creeping up his neck like an unwanted vine. That he had given it such little attention he had not even wanted to mark how it might have grown as the years passed by.
And it reflects in his expression, that regret. That despite everything, he had not wanted to hurt Claude over this. That the mere thought of having done so is in its own way a painful thing.] ...When did you find out?
[Claude is particularly adept at getting Lorenz to speak so callously, whether he's trying to or not, so it's hardly a surprise. It's likely his own endlessly curious nature that led to him knowing too well how the mark on his own back looks-- it's not exactly easy to see on himself, and he certainly wasn't going to ask someone to describe it to him. It's because Claude habitually pays close attention to everything in his life that he's tracked the changes. Devoid of those characteristics and preferring to ignore the idea of soulmates completely, of course Lorenz hasn't checked for himself.
Not even once, though?
He smiles anyway, attempting to convey his usual unflappability. He's Claude, after all, and Claude is always fine. There's no need for Lorenz to regret, because he isn't hurt. This is an important thing that they need to discuss, but he doesn't begrudge Lorenz the choices he's made.] I don't remember the exact date. Teach had us on stable duty together.
something something not knowing yourself will cause bad something
[It takes Lorenz a moment to consider that, for they have often been paired for any number of duties together.
And, at first, Lorenz had questioned that, for to place them together would surely have been akin to fire and kindling. Naught but sparks and tempers (or perhaps that had merely been on his part.)
But as they had grown and the war had come to fruition, he had learned to appreciate Byleth’s wisdom in that regard. As much friction as there might have been between them, it could have only hurt their house, and ultimately the Alliance, to stay strangers. To be constantly at odds, dancing between prying questions and evasive answers with no true amount of trust to speak of. And as they had labored beneath blazing suns and chill winter winds, he had, after a fashion, at least become comfortable with the presence of Claude, if not his disposition.
Success in that regard, if nothing else.
Which, of course, also aligns with Claude’s recollection. With so many days spent as such, it is easy to envision how he might have noticed Lorenz’s mark despite the pains taken to conceal it. (An eternally clasped collar arranged to meticulous perfection.) Toiling in the heat, it would have been easy to have forgotten himself, even if only for a moment, and to loosen a collar in an effort to keep from overheating. And his hair, kept neatly trimmed, would have offered no cover with which to conceal what his coat had.
And so Claude had found out and…]
And? [The question is a quiet one, thinly veiled in something not unlike frustration as he gives Claude a look. He does not mean to make this an interrogation but the other is, typically, offering little on his own thoughts about the matter.] When did you decide to keep it to yourself?
[He can practically see how Lorenz turns the information over in his mind, keen eyes watching the minute shifts in his expression. The answer to his question is obvious, really-- immediately. For a different reason initially than what it came to be, but it had been an immediate decision regardless.
Answering a question with a question is, he knows, pretty damn irritating, but Lorenz is nearly always irritated with him anyway. And, perhaps selfishly, he feels his question is more important than giving a blatantly obvious answer.] What would you have done if I hadn't?
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not even claude stops to consider what he wants oops
As expected, the bare minimum of pleasantries and Lorenz gets straight to the point. For once, Claude has no idea what Lorenz wants from him. Lorenz himself likely doesn't know. And Claude can't stand not knowing things.
It's tempting to fall back on flippancy, especially after he's already made such an earnest statement-- but he doesn't. This is important, and he wants Lorenz to know it's a matter he takes seriously.] Yeah. You can get a look for yourself, if you want.
claude pls
It is an admission that implies nothing good- that he himself does not even know exactly what his mark looks like. That he knows only that it is there, gracing the back of his shoulder and creeping up his neck like an unwanted vine. That he had given it such little attention he had not even wanted to mark how it might have grown as the years passed by.
And it reflects in his expression, that regret. That despite everything, he had not wanted to hurt Claude over this. That the mere thought of having done so is in its own way a painful thing.] ...When did you find out?
but the Big Picture lorenz....
Not even once, though?
He smiles anyway, attempting to convey his usual unflappability. He's Claude, after all, and Claude is always fine. There's no need for Lorenz to regret, because he isn't hurt. This is an important thing that they need to discuss, but he doesn't begrudge Lorenz the choices he's made.] I don't remember the exact date. Teach had us on stable duty together.
something something not knowing yourself will cause bad something
And, at first, Lorenz had questioned that, for to place them together would surely have been akin to fire and kindling. Naught but sparks and tempers (or perhaps that had merely been on his part.)
But as they had grown and the war had come to fruition, he had learned to appreciate Byleth’s wisdom in that regard. As much friction as there might have been between them, it could have only hurt their house, and ultimately the Alliance, to stay strangers. To be constantly at odds, dancing between prying questions and evasive answers with no true amount of trust to speak of. And as they had labored beneath blazing suns and chill winter winds, he had, after a fashion, at least become comfortable with the presence of Claude, if not his disposition.
Success in that regard, if nothing else.
Which, of course, also aligns with Claude’s recollection. With so many days spent as such, it is easy to envision how he might have noticed Lorenz’s mark despite the pains taken to conceal it. (An eternally clasped collar arranged to meticulous perfection.) Toiling in the heat, it would have been easy to have forgotten himself, even if only for a moment, and to loosen a collar in an effort to keep from overheating. And his hair, kept neatly trimmed, would have offered no cover with which to conceal what his coat had.
And so Claude had found out and…]
And? [The question is a quiet one, thinly veiled in something not unlike frustration as he gives Claude a look. He does not mean to make this an interrogation but the other is, typically, offering little on his own thoughts about the matter.] When did you decide to keep it to yourself?
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Answering a question with a question is, he knows, pretty damn irritating, but Lorenz is nearly always irritated with him anyway. And, perhaps selfishly, he feels his question is more important than giving a blatantly obvious answer.] What would you have done if I hadn't?